I was able to fullfill my single task yesterday of submitting my payslip. You know, I’m starting to like this single tasking for a day thing. It means that I will be prioritizing or focusing only one task for a day. Though, it doesn’t mean that this is the only thing I will  be doing. Honestly, I get more done with this, because my mind is free and relaxed and I only do things I want to do. Thus, I get more done in a day instead with my mind still feeling clean and relaxed. I only have to assure I get the single task for the day done before anything else. This is quiet relaxing for me and I feel less pressued and stressed out.

Today, my only goal is to heal my tooth ache. Ate Joy, the yaya of my baby advised that this is not just a simple tooth ache but this is related to BUGHAT or PASMO because I do not eat at the right time and sometimes I skip meals. Honestly, most of the time. It’s not only one tooth which is aching but the entire jaw area upper and lower on the right side. I couldn’t sleep at night. Good thing I told her this morning and she advised me to take Gardan. I had my breakfast early and then I took Gardan. The pain was almost killing me. My face is already swollen on the right side and it hurts badly. The pain is going through my ears and my right head. I wanna die because of the pain. I have never felt this so much pain before. I slept in the sleeping room while still on duty for two hours. When I woke up, the killer pain was no longer there, though it still hurts a little and its still a little swollen. I feel so much better now but I am still observing myself and making sure it will not return anymore. If it does, perhaps i need to take one more Gardan. I’ll observe myself for this day and night and if there’s no improvement, I gotta see a dentist already.

I wasn’t able to fulfill my task of making a card for my hubby yesterday. Why? I suffered a serious head ache and tooth ache at the same time yesterday. The tooth ache started the night before then it stopped in the morning and after I ate a small chocolate it ached nonstop until the following day, which is today. I already took Mefenamic pain reliever twice yesterday.  The ache is almost unbearable. It is killing me. The pain goes to my head as well and my body temperature rises. Even the pain killers can’t stop the pain. It is just so strong. I even could not figure out which tooth was causing the pain. I figured there were around 3 of them alternating. Just today, a coworker suggested it might be “pasmo” because I don’t eat at the right time every day. Sometimes I do not eat lunch, and sometimes I eat lunch but its very late, like around 2-3 pm already. This pain makes me swear that I would be really strict on my meals now. I need to eat at the right time. I need to listen to my body. I also need to take something to heal this “PASMO”.
And of course, I need to be strict with my meal and with taking care of my teeth.
Because of this, I am backing out in being the host/emcee for our upcoming pre valentine celebration. I’m relieved but quiet sad of the opportunity as well. Anyway, there will surely be a lot more celebrations to come where I can be an emcee.
Today, my single task is to submit a copy of my payslip so I can process my loan application as quickly as possible. I have to go to their main office which is in Magallanes Colon. I have committed to working only on one single task per day to avoid being too exhausted and stressed out. But, it doesn’t mean this will be the only thing I will do. It only means this is the only thing I will think about and prioritize for the day.

Today is a special day. It’s our 41st monthsarry or 3rd year and 5 months of being together. Whew! That’s a feat. I haven’t greeted the hubby this morning yet. I guess, we both forgot about it earlier today though we have been thinking about it the last couple of days. So, today, I plan to buy a card and wrote him a love letter. I used to write him a lot but these few months, I haven’t given him any letter yet. I’m sure he would be surprised to find a letter from me. There are a lot of things I need to let him know. Though, I tell him how much i love him and i show it in small ways every single day, I still feel like I need to let him know right now, how much my love for him has grown over the years.
I am so thankful for having a husband like him. I could never ask for more. We had some challenges for the past years, and I am glad we made it until here. Only God is the reason why we were able to make it. He has changed me. He made me a better person indeed.  I could not imagine living a life without him by my side and I could never imagine losing him anytime from now.  So, my task for today again is to make a card for him. Today is also the day that I need to get information on my task this Thursday for our monthly Birthday Bash celebration in the company. I will be the host/emcee and I need to know all the details of the program so I would be able to handle it very well. I am scared a little bit, but I don’t back up from things like this. Anything that takes me out of my comfort zone is something very welcome to me.

Our lives can become so complicated, buxy, toxic and hectic without us intending it to. Our overcommitment to many things, inability to say no, over achieving spirit tends to make us forget to relax and stop and think about what we are doing. Living in the city has influenced me in so many ways. As a working mom, my days are usually full but since I have house helps it doesn’t really have to be. It is not a do or die thing. I can choose to be relax but most of the time I fall into choosing to become a doer of so many things, accomplishing a lot of thinsg without stopping to breathe and to relax.The irony is when I feel so relax and when I allow myself to be so, i feel guilty specially if I have been that way for so many days. So, I think the key here is balance. There should be certains periods when you are on the go accomplishing things and there should be a period of rest, silence, meditation, relaxation. This allows our body to recharge. It is so easy to say yet I found it a challenge to do. As a mother, I am responsible for a lot of things. I want to simplify my life right now. When I feel too overwhelmed by a lot of things, I tend to lose focus and motivation. So I need to achieve balance. I want to simplify my life, stopping by every now and then to check on myself I am still okay or if I needed some silence and rest. If I would be able to handle that, then, I wouldn’t need a project management software anymore.

Last Saturday our planned trip to Hidden Paradise did not materialize. For some reasons, the day before this day I felt something, like I didn’t wanna go even if I so love to have a vacation. I felt like the time was not perfect. But still, we prepared everything. On that day, after my work I went to the mall to buy things that we would be bringing to our one day overnight stay at hidden paradise only to find out at the end of the day that the husband of my baby’s yaya was hospitalized and she needed to go home. We still have one yaya. She’s a young cousin of my husband and I’m really not comfortable leaving my baby behind just with her alone. So, we decided to just put it off. I knew it was so frustriating for both of us, particularly me. I have waited, planned and dreamed of this day. I knew we needed a vacation even just for a day. A break from all the business of life in the city and from all our responsibilities. Even a break from taking care of insurance quotes and businesses.

Tomorrow I and my hubby will be going on a date. Haha! Yes… We are going to have a one day vacation to Hidden Paradise. This is located in the mountain area. There are 3 big pools and the rooms are really affordable. There’s a 600 peso room which is non aircon and the roof is made of nipa hut though the floor is concrete. The airconditioned room which is all conrete and painted very nicely with nice bed and beddings is only 1500 per day with free breakfast and with shower and cr. There’s even a television if you get lucky. Anyway, I want to save so I think the 600 peso room will be fine since there’s also a fan and we are used to that already. The place is in the mountain area and these days the weather is so cold so I couldn’t think of any other use for an aircon. The place has 3 big pools, really really big and nice and clean pools. And it’s surrounded by trees, lots of green things and of course the view of the mountain. My friend says it’s very safe as they have a guard and it’s private. It’s very well maintained, very clean yet few people come because of its location, that’s why its called Hidden Paradise. Only those who already came here kept coming to this hidden location which is indeed like paradise.  I was looking for a place where I can have my retreat alone so I can indulge in solitude, silence and bliss but I decided that this place would become more beautiful with my hubby around. If I will come here alone, I’m sure he won’t let me stay over night. So, the plan now is that it will be the two of us. I’m sure it will be a great rebonding time as it has been like more than 2 months ago since our vacation alone in Bantayan Island. I am so looking forward to having the hubby all by myself. Whew! I would swim nonstop on the pools and lay around and have fun….fun….fun.  I will make this day one of the best days of our lives. We have been working like cows and we really deserve this.

Yesterday, I was busy looking for a place where I can have my solitude even just for a day.
I so need to be alone even just for a short period of time. When I think about it, it makes me very excited and happy. I am really an introvert and being a mom and a working woman, I am always on the go and I am always on the accomplishing mode. I want to respect my need for meditation, peace, solitude cause I believe deep inside that this is what I need to lead a full life. Well, this one deserves another post.

I found Sugbutel’s website. For only 250 pesos you get to stay in Sugbutel, a mini hotel specially for travelers. There’s free wireless internet and you get to have a bed. And I thought its a separate room, but sad to say, I learned that the beds are open to everyone. The beds are lined up just like when you are in a ship. There is no privacy. If there would be lots of travelers, it would be very noisy for sure.

So, I had to consider another place. A friend recommended this place, Hidden Paradise just a few minutes ride from the city. I never knew this place exists. It’s good to have lots of friends who are knowledgeable to a lot of different things so you get to have information as well. The Hidden Paradise has 3 pools, and its located in the mountain. You have to ride a busy for few minutes then from there, you have to ride a motorcycle, habal-habal, for around 20-30 minutes going to Hidden Paradise and that’s it. That’s nothing compared to the long travel we endured for our Bantayan Trip. It was 3 hours of road travel by bus then 1 hour of travel by ferry boat. It was really far so the travel cost is very expensive as well. On the other hand, Hidden Paradise cost you very little when it comes to travel expense. Plus, the room is only 600 for a basic nipa room with electric fan. The air conditioned room cost 1500 per night, still very affordable. There’s no beach or sea since its in the mountain but the 3 pools would provide a very good place to swim. This would be perfect indeed for solitude as my friend says there are only few people who come to this place specially on cold weather times. I saw the pictures and it really makes me wanna go there ASAP. The question that I’m contemplating right now is to go there first as a family or with only myself for my solitude or retreat. I want to have both but for now, I have to choose which one to do first. I so really wanna come to this place. I’m so excited.

Kris Aquino’s relationship to James Yap is faced with another challenge. All through their 5 years of marriage, they’ve had enough of challenges due to issues of James’ infidelity. I perfectly understand Kris and what she wants out of their relationship. That is the problem with most men. Kris wants a dedicated husband. He wants James to not look at other women anymore and just be a family man. But, James seems to be too young for such things yet. I guess he really still has a tendecy to fool around. He doesn’t look very committed as a husband at all. I can see that Kris has given all of her for their relationship but James is not giving the same in return, and I know it hurts. I also think that James as a husband should have tried his best to stay away from any temptations specially that he has already committed to Kris who has no other concern but their family. I don’t think Kris deserves all of this. She has given James enough of chances. Each family has a challenge of their own, but sometimes when you have too much and when others think you have everything, that’s when the truth comes out that there are more important things than money and being able to afford Branson vacations.

My favorite food right now is Chao King’s Chorizo Chao Fan. It is a mixture of rice, toyo, egg, chorizo and other toppings. I love it so  much that I ate it every day for the 5 days of work last week. I’m still planning to eat the same thing this week, as I am still craving for it. I even craved for it during my non working days, which is only 2 days. I don’t easily like foods, but this time the taste of Chowking’s special menu finally got into me. It’s only 49 pesos and you also get to have a free drink with it, usually Iced tea or Pineapple juice. It’s actually a lot. After eating it, I can really feel that I’m so full already since it’s a big serving. They upsized their original Chao Fan before that’s why it’s more than enough now. If your on a diet and is taking weight loss products I highly suggest you leave going to Chowking off, as it will really destroy your diet. They have a lot of to die for dishes that you cannot afford say no.

I look slim whether in person or in photos. That’s why I often get asked about diets for quick weight loss and some people just couldn’t believe that I’m not following any diet or whatsoever and in fact I’m aiming to gain some weight. There was a time that I got dangerously thin. That was the time that I was still very stressed out as an agent taking calls for 8 hours a day. No matter how much I rest after work, I still cannot avoid feeling exhausted emotionally and mentally due to my work. My previous position as an agent was very demanding and it took all energy out of me. Now, I have more free time and I’m not that stressed so I can start working on my goal to have my ideal body weight.