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Early this week, I had an allergy attack. I had hypersentivity after eating shrimp. I know I am allergic to shrimps but I never thought the food had very tiny shrimps. I never thought I’m allergic to tiny shrimps either. It was like in disguise, cause it was like bola-bola but inside it are very tiny shrimps. I ate it very fast, and I was in a hurry too. It was the only meal choice left in our pantry. My instinct told me to go to the nearest fastfood, Jollibee or Mcdonald, but I was too tired and lazy to go out from the office because it was another busy day which left me exhausted after a couple hours of being on call.

What happened? After an hour, I felt I was hot all over in my body. Suddenly I had very painful stomachaches that I tried to hide by going to the CR, then I wanted to vomit so much. I tried to get back to work, and I did. But, then I noticed that I was itchy all over, then my coworker said I am so red. When I looked into my face in the mirror, my face was swelling all over. It was like I was very very very drunk, then my hands and arms were full of swores. I felt very very itchy all over. I tried to disregard it, and managed to finish my work for another 2 hours. Then, it was getting worst as time goes by. I managed to finish my work, as I hate to be on undertime.

Before going home, I took Alnix, but it never did anything. It just got worst, and I was swore for the next 5 hours. I managed to sleep, but when I woke up, I almost can’t recognize my face anymore. But even if I look terrible, i decided to go the doctor.

I had previous food allergy attacks, specifically seafoods allergy attacks before, but it never was this worst. It was manageable, but this time, I honestly looked like a monster that people who see me can’t help but stare. But, still I went to the dcotor. Despite my previous experience, I honestly would say I am still clueless how to handle situations like this.

I went to the doctor, and I had to ride a taxi so people in the jeepney wont keep staring at me. Then, at the clinic, the doctor asked some questions and gave me medication. It was another allergy tablet, that cost 44 pesos each. He wants me to take it for 5 days, 2 times a day. So, that alone is quiet costly but I wanted to be healed as soon as possible so I wont have trouble at work.

I took it in the evening back home. The doctor wasn’t kind enough to give me an advice to rest, even if I am swollen all over. I was praying he would cause I am thinking the swelling wont be over by tomorrow.

The medicine helped take the itchiness away, but the swelling wasn’t over.  It was like, nothing changed. It still looked worst.  But, something amazed me. My husband let me eat something, that healed my allergy in just a matter of 3 hours. The swelling was gone, and there were only little left in my eyes when I woke up. It was just like when you don’t get enough sleep or when cry, your eyes bulge a little. But, the swelling was completely gone all over my face, and my body. It was a miracle. I was stunned, blowned, amazed and just happy to know there is an inexpensive way of managing my allergies.

I won’t have to over when this happens again, cause I now have a special recipe to help me out. God’s miracle indeed. Know what it is?

I’ll let you know in my next post…

Note: This entry was written 2 days ago.

Just as I thought my problem with my teeth is over, I started feeling severe pain again. It has been a couple of days when my teeth started to feel painful again. It’s the one at the bottom right corner.
Upon inspection, I just found out its already has a big hole in it, that is why every time I get, the food will get inside it which will cause severe pain and aches. Good thing, it’s my day off when I started to feel it.
I thought I would never ever have a problem with my teeth again. Surely, this affects my productivity so much. As someone who works in a call center, I can’t let health issues like this, interrupt my work. It’s just too frustrating. I almost wasn’t able to attend church service yesterday, because of my teeth, but after taking mefenamic acid it went away so I was able to go. Now, its back. I had to take another mefenamic acid. I just made the call to the dentist, and I am scheduled this Friday July 17 for a dental filling. Our company’s health affiliate is kainos. Temporary fillings are covered up to 4, but permanent ones have payment. I think its 300 per teeth.
You have to set up appoinments by calling as they are always busy. If I could find another dentist who will do it tomorrow or the next day
I will have it done by that dentist. I don’t think I could still wait until Friday.
Do you remember the scene in Cast Away starring Tom Hanks? The story of the man who lived for 4 years alone in an island in the Pacific when he was trapped after being in a plane crash. While in the island, he had a toothache, and he was talking to the volleyball he named Wilson as if it was a person, saying he had always feared the dentist but at that point, he would pay any amount just to have a dentist extract his aching teeth.
He then, went on to remove it by himself. He used the sharpener of a roller blades, and pointed it on his teeth while pounding a quiet big stone on it with force.
He almost died as he fell and pounded his head on the rocks and fainted.

If I knew this teeth of mine will bring me so much pain, I should have taken care of it much much better than I did.

I would say that my effort to sleep early is really paying off. I couldn’t say I have made my aim perfect. I still wanted to sleep earlier than the time I am sleeping by now, and I also wanted to rise earlier and to leave work earlier.So, far, I can notice the impact and the big difference this early sleeping is giving me. Few days from the time I have started it, I can already notice the big difference this slight change can make.

This system is really great. I am more alert at work, and I’m not that distracted and sleepy. I can provide a better quality of work as I am not tired and sleepy unlike before.With this, I have a great reason to continue this habit of sleeping early in a strict manner, not just when I feel like I am already as tired as out of this work, before I start heading on to sleep.

One time, this guy with hid kits commented that I am very absent minded cause I borrowed a cd from video city, and I almost forget getting the cd and just headed straight home. I have so many instances like that. When I pay for something, I would just go away without getting it, and the cashier has to call me out…hmmmm, not a good one, right? these are already warning signs.

I am planning to read more on the benefits of sleeping early, as to make me more motivated to continue. When you have a reason for doing something, it becomes easier. And even if its hard, you can still do it.As of now, I am working on improving my sleeping time by one hour earlier. Just one hour more. And, waking up 30 minutes earlier and leaving home 30 minutes earlier.

Whew, this might some alarming to me, but I know I can do it.

Starting yesterday and for the week to come, my goal is to establish a routine of sleeping early. I had to wake up at 2 am, and get to work at 3 am. So, for me to get enough sleep of at least 7 hours, I need to be sleeping by 7 pm. The problem is. I am still very up by that time, doing things around the house. Well, of course, the house and the people on it, can stay on without me. I can sleep my butt out and not affect anything in the house. Hard to believe? Yeah, thats the good thing about it.
But, I usually end up doing other things such as browsing on the internet and doing some online work, writing some stuff in my notebooks, arranging things in my bedroom, cleaning up the house just to stay up. I usually retire at 9 pm to bed, if lucky. Thats the time, I stay in bed, but If I am restless because of a certain thought or event that keeps me excited, sad or anything, even if I stay in bed at 9 pm, I end up sleeping at 11 pm. My body clock seems to know that the hubs is coming by this time, and if I sleep at 9 pm, I usually rise up at 11 pm, to see him and to have some chat. Then, I sleep again, and get another sleep. Not, a very good routine huh?
The result, I end up so groggy and sleepy at work. The quality of my work, is of course at stake, plus I feel so tired that work is a drudgery.

I want to make sure I get enough sleep so I will stay alert and active at work. I want to concentrate on my work more. I have learned that sleeping only for a few hours each night is not good for our health. I should have known. Or, I have known but never listened and took it for granted.

So, from now, I want to see to it that I am getting prepared for work by getting enough sleep. The first night, last Monday I was successful. By 7:30 pm, I am already sleeping. While last night, I failed for a couple of hours. I slept at around 8:30 or 9:00 because the hubs went home early and we enjoyed chatting while we were lying in bed. I wanted to sleep, but I can’t close my eyes with him around. I wanted to talk to him more. Baby also slept late and she kept crying so I couldn’t sleep. Plus, the hubs installed the new plastic ceiling fan in our room, which took a few minutes.
I think, we both slept at the same time.

I don’t regret it, cause I treasure every time that I get to bond with him. Anyway, he said tonight he will be coming in at around 10:00 pm to 12:00 am, depending on the need for over time. So, I want to make sure I really do get a lot of sleep.

Sleeping at 9 pm, is not effective for me. I still feel so sleepy right now.

It is my first day of work today. The past week has been to restful to me, because of my tooth extraction. I had been working for almost 2 years, without breaks, and I think I really needed that break.
After work today, I was supposed to come w/ my team for a team building where we will be eating pizza at da vinci’s. But, I did not come. I chose to come home right away, as I felt a little tired and I wanted to get some rest. I also want to make that I will be able to do what I intended to do today. Create or publish at least 5 different posts on my blogs. I have several blogs and I will be spreading out those 5 posts so my other blogs will be updated as well.

Yesterday I was at the mall, in search for the medicine for my baby. She is sick with amoebiasis. Too bad. We really had to get her medicine. The hubby has tried to find it on Sunday, but all pharmarcies were out of stock in a certain area. So, I went to the mall, and went to 3 pharmacies, there are only 3 in that mall, and none of them has the medicine.

My mom has to go back to the pedia to tell her we couldn’t find it. She did go early today, cause we both have work, and she was given another medicine. I am surprised I didn’t have trouble finding it. I went to the nearest pharmacy in our house, and I am so glad I found it. I am also happy when I learned it cost around 3/4 less of the price I expected it to be. I thought it will reach 400-600 per bottle, but it was only 133 something, and I bought 2 cause she has to take it for 10 days.

I am happy we have the medicine now and she can start her medication. I am just restless knowing her condition. She keeps defecating watery stool, and my mom spotted mucous and blood on it. For the past week, she has been having this. Every time she would eat, she would defecate after. We thought it was just because of her teeth.

I realized how important cleanliness and hygiene is in our surroundings and even to ourselves. It really is a must.

Now, I am off to my pc, even if I wanted to sleep because of the cool weather. I have been waiting for oppps from payu2blog, but there are none waiting yet. I hope I will have some tomorrow.

Some of you might be wondering what has happened to me or if ever I will still be coming back to the blogging world. You never heard any updates from me for the last week. The reason was, I had my teeth extracted. 2 of them. I had neglected it for some time, and it caused me a lot of pain. It was very painful during the procedure. It was through God’s mercy that I made it successfully. I was given a note to rest for 2 days. Then, after the 2 days sick leave, I had my day off, but while I was about to work, there was bleeding and I also fainted early in the morning, at around 3 am while preparing for work. So, we had to phone the office that I can’t come, and we rushed to the hospital early in the morning.  I was given another 3 days of rest. All in all, I had no work for 8 days. It is quiet odd I missed work a little. Just a little. Hehe. Cause I love being at home. I never used the internet or the computer. All I did during these days, for fear of complications is to rest, sleep, and rest rest rest. I am even not allowed to carry my baby nor play with her too long cause I easily get tired. Today, I feel that I will be ready to go to work tomorrow. Then, the next day will be our family outing to cebu pacific resort. I did my online assignments today, and everything went fine. I am happy that everything is well now.

I always feel grateful to God that He has given me someone like my honey. After my failed relationships in the past, I never thought I could still find a person who deserves to be given the kind of love I am capable of giving. There’s nothing like being so much in love with your partner, and knowing that he loves you better than you do. I am sometimes amazed by how much he has improved as a person and how much he is growing in fulfilling his roles as a husband, a father, a friend, a son and a servant to God. I really admire him, and the way he has carried himself and his family in the midst of difficulties. I think he is the kind of man that any woman would ever want to have. I swear. I am just lucky that he is mine, and I know he is mine forever. Whenever we go in buildings he would look up at how the electrical outlets, wires and ceilings are built and would explain some things to me that I barely understand. He even showed me the differences between ceramic tile, marbles etc.

I would say this man, brings out the best in me. I always want to be the best and to show my best for him. But, its sweet that even if you suck in some areas he would still love you the same. I hope that I am also able to encourage him to be better and to become the best he can be. I know he has a lot of potential that he has never realized before, and that he is jSo ust starting to discover now. I am happy for him and what he has become. And this man? I wouldn’t exchange him for any Piolo Pascual or John Llyod Cruz out there. I’m not kidding. He is my one and only and the last man that I will love for the rest of my life.

This is one of our pictures when we had a beach outing together w/ my husband’s friends and coworkers at the beach, for his 23rd bday last june 11. That’s almost a month now, but it took me long to post it as I have been quiet occupied for the last weeks. I really enjoyed the outing so much because I am a beach lover. I have always been. I just love being one with the sea, and I feel so much peace, happiness and contentment when a sea is in sight. I love to think and ponder while I am overlooking a sea. I love the peace I feel everytime I am near the sea. The hubby was busy entertaining his friends, while joining the two of us every now and then, while I, the little one and our babysitter, took the plunge and spent most of the time immersed in the sea. The little one felt a little bit scared at first, cause this is her very first time, but eventually she liked it. She wouldn’t let me go. She wanted me to be the one to hold the swimmimg pad for her, and not our babysitter. When it rained and I observed she was already shaking, I decided to finally dress both of us up. I’m afraid there will be some kind of lighting with the rain. That’s dangerous for those who are immersed in water.

I am super exicited for our next outing this Saturday. It will be in Cebu Pacific Grand Resort I think. Not so sure of the name. The three of us will come together w/ other families in our company. It will be a fun day for us. I am excited for my baby to be in the beach again.

One of the wish lists, or lets say goal also is to take the family for a boracay family trip. I am hoping that by next year, it will happen. Probably on our 4th anniversary next year. That will be my 24th bday, and my baby’s 3rd bday. I’m sure I will be awed by Boracay. I so love the beach.

Photo: taken by Sheila (my babysitter) during our outing for my honey’s 23rd bday. baby looks irritated that we’re asking her to smile cause she is busy tinkering on the sand w/ a spoon. hehe

I love to spend time with my little one. Time is so fast, and as a working mom like me, there are times that I get shocked by how fast it does, and how fast my little child is growing. Sometimes, I envy those who are able to stay at home and spend every minute of each day with their child. Reading textbooks to them, playing with them, going places with them and doing silly and fun things with them. But, if you think about it, what I am doing is for my child. Anyways, I am already saving up so i can afford to stop working someday. It might take me more than 2 years or so, cause I need a quiet bigger amount of money. We have lots of plans. Once I have the money to stop working, I will start a business and manage it. I will also be working online and be a work at home mom to take care of my beloved husband and cute little one while my husband works in a full time job. I want to really see her grow and to take care of her. If God permits, after that time, we want to have our own house and lot too. We praise God for every little thing he is doing to our family. He is our anchor and our strength. He is the center of our relationship and the reason why we remain strong.