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Archive for April, 2009

There are times that we grab opportunities thinking it will solve everything and lead us to where we want. But, if we are not careful, these decisions could get us out of track in our lives. Just a couple of weeks I have been presented an opportunity to earn money. I got a part time job as a rewriter, though salary is not as high in blogging, and though you have to work hard, the good thing is you are paid for in a regular basis. So I was so earger about it. After work, I rest for a while, or sleep for an hour, then start working on my part time. I have to write up to 10 rewrites daily from monday to friday. So, I work from 5 am to 2 pm, go back home, work on rewriting till around 11:00 pm up to 1:00 am, get few hours of sleep then work at 5 am again. I tried to solve this by hiring rewriters. Even if price is low, people were so interested in them. But, I only got into trouble. There were people who were unreliable. People who wouldn’t submit on deadlines, so I end up doing it by myself. People who do it, but with low quality, and there was one who was reliable and has good quality writing.

But it didn’t really help as I had to double check everything and do a series of checking first, so I still had to spend time in front of the laptop. I soon realized I was missing on a lot of things. I had no time for myself, no time to spend with my baby, and less time for taking care of my hubby too. No time at all, except work…work…work. I hated it, by i wanted so much to earn and save money.

I made some meditation, and realized all the wrong decisions. Actually, if I hadn’t been stressed that I caused a quarrel and strain in my relationship with my hubby, I wouldn’t wake up. I would have still blindly go for money, sacrificing relationships, my health, my free time, and all else, including my relationship with God. So, I had to wake up and realize that there’s more to life, than money and wealth. There’s just more to it, and to think I already have so many many blessings in my life right now. I pray that God will consistently guide me in my journey as a wife, a mother, a daughter, and a servant. Without him, I wouldn’t be able to choose the right path for myself.

Synopsis: Tom (Patrick Dempsey) loves his life, until he realizes he also loves his best friend Hannah. But when Hannah gets engaged to a dashing Scotsman and asks Tom to be her maid of honor, Tom faces hostile bridesmaids, bridal showers, and bad hair days, all in an effort to pull off the perfect wedding and steal the bride. He’s a maid of honor with a plan.

This is a pretty exciting movie. Sounds predictable but let’s say how they play the parts to make it more interesting. It’s my day off tomorrow and the next day, so I rented out 4 movies, and this is one of them. I love movies like this. Those kind that makes your world stop and your chandeliers shake.

I haven’t received any response from the admin regarding my inquiry on why I haven’t received any tasks. But, I have been answered, though in a different way. They finally gave me a set of tasks to work on. I am so happy today, when I logged on to my account on saw about 8 tasks awaiting for me to finish. I am very thankful. More than the extra money I could save out of it, is the fact that they did not remove my blog. If they did, it would be a great loss to me, and I might just lose interest in blogging. Though, I love to write so much, it would be a frustration to lose something that you’ve been earning for months already, right? I am just so happy today. I am going to work on adding more blogs, for more opportunities.

I just read an article that smiles are good indicators of a person’s personality. Through a person’s smile in photos, you can tell whether the person is a happy and light person, or a grumpy and frowny person. I thought I would agree to this. When I look at friendster, the happy people have great photos wearing their happy and joyful smile. As if they belong to the moment, and they enjoy what they are doing. However, there are those who look gloomy in pictures, not even smiling. You can see it in most of their photos. According to research, a person’s photo can reveal a person’s personality and can be a determinant to predict a person’s success in any areas of life. We have proven many times, that a happy and positive outlook of life, is more beneficial than we thought it is. An average person who has a positive outlook can be twice as more likely to be successful, than a very intelligent and talented but grumpy and negative person. As they say, attitude matters most. Just like this girl, named tweety biol, one of my friendster friends. She was my elementary classmate’s sister. She really looks smiling and happy in her photos. She seems to be a very nice person, one who radiates happiness and positivity. I like to be around such people. She even has a photo in a Sahara hotel while she was arranging a table, since she finished HRST if I’m not mistaken and is working in hotel establishments.

It has been a wonder why payu2blog hasn’t given me any tasks lately.  If I am not mistaken, it has been 2-3 weeks already, and today is giving of opps day, but still I haven’t received anything from them. I am not used to this, since as far as I can remember, they have always given me tasks every week. Usually 2 tasks, and 4 tasts if I’m lucky. They have been my only source of blogging income, and I’m not into payperpost or izea, cause i can’t keep up with the grabbing of tasks.

I already sent an email to the admin, and I do hope to get a response from them explaining my dilemma. I hope they will have the heart to help me out, as they always did before.

It is my goal to add 10,000 pesos on our savings. We are hoping and praying for a new business early next year, that will add to our income sources. A new business would be a good idea, which we have dreamed for long. But, I know it wouldn’t help to keep thinking about it. The key, is to actually get started, no matter how small. Of course, it would require us to save for it. So, here I am, trying my very best to monitor my spending, and using our resources only for very important needs. I had to keep myself from buying those extra luxuries, even if its for myself. I really had to. It will get me nowhere, if I keep on spending and working, its useless. I have to do something to go up to our way to financial freedom.

By now, we have an additional of 2,500 pesos savings, aside from the savings we already have set aside. I got the 1,500 from blogging and the 1,000 is an extra from hubby’s salary, which we used for home expenses. I was initially planning to pull it up to 10,000 savings in one month, but let’s see if I can make it. I still have some other resources to get it from, but we’ll just see.

My hubby was very sweet yesterday. He is sweet most of the time, but yesterday I really felt it. I like it everytime he is like that. He is not showy and sometimes he doesn’t show his feelings, but I really appreciate it when he tries to connect. After work, he came home and when he saw I was lying down, listening to music, he was so excited and said he rented out a CD for me, Against the Dark by Steven Seagal. I felt tired, and said I better stay in bed, listening, but he urged me to watch it, and I eventually did as always. I just can’t resist him. heheh! He kept asking me if I liked it, and I assured him I did. Then, at night, before he left for band practice, cause they will perform tomorrow on church for worship, I really felt his kiss. You know, I really felt his sweetness. He reminded me to sweet early. I never told him I slept the whole day, from 8 am to 2 pm. Hahha, he would have laugh hard If I did. He came back, past 10 pm I think. When he came to bed, he hugged me as usual whenever he comes home. We feel very hot at night, cause we don’t have aircon, plus the fact that we can’t stay away from each other. We still tightly hugging each other. Whenever he wakes up, he looks for me, and when I’m inches away, he would pull me closer. I do the same thing, when I wake up in the middle of the night, I make sure he is close. When he is not, I pull him closer or I pull myself closer to him. We just can’t be separated. I can’t imagine waking up, without him. I hope there will be many many many…many years to come for us to be together with our beloved daughter, baby bless.

Since Kris Aquino’s Bingo gameshow has been aired, our neighbors have been hooked up to it. I’m not saying they are hooked up to watching, but most probably they are too, in their respective homes. What I’m saying is, they are hooked up and addicted in actually playing the game.

Most of my neighbors are jobless, and if they are not, only their spouses are. Most women are staying at home, doing nothing, but having fun while wasting their precious time. They even have babies in their arms while playing, and the babies look awfully dirty and it seems like no one is taking care of them. Can you imagine they have been doing this everyday, starting in the morning, around 8 am up to night time. And the worst part? they do this, just near our house, in our backyard. But we can’t complain, cause this is their place. We came last here, and we are just renting. Plus, almost all people join. I just can’t imagine how they afford to waste their precious time gambling and doing something unproductive when life is so difficult nowadays.

I have been blogging officially for a year now. It was March 2008, when I started to blog seriously. Though, I had post back from November 2007, it was only in March that I really started to learn how to blog. Now, I have come far, and the learning process was painful, exciting and fun at the same time. Every idea and new learning, but something to savored for. After half a year, I started with another blog, which also became successful, as I am already earning from it. Well, that’s my measure of success. Specially for people like me, who blog for profit or more income, that could be my criteria of success, though its not the same for others, who are really trying to establish their name in their own area of interest, or what they call as “”niche”

I have been successful, not only because of my deep interest for finding another source of income, but mostly for my interest in writing and reading. I am a writer by heart. I just don’t run out of words to say. There’s so much in the world I want to share. Now, I am also starting 4 more blogs, which I am still working on. When I am ready, I will introduce it to you guys.

Managing multiple blogs could really be a challenge. Specially in my case, that I have a full time job as a technical support agent in a call center. Plus, I have a family to take care: a husband and a cute and active 1 and a half year old. I prioritize my family of course, and I make sure I have enough attention and time for them. Without them, all these efforts I am doing are nothing. It’s mostly for them, they are my inspiration. I want to give my family a better life. So, I want to exhaust all efforts just to uplift our life.

Your father’s body, once big and strong
but now the big is withered and the strong is weaker.
Wisps of grey peek out from his hair,
wrinkles now “scar” his forehead and face.
“This man works hard every day and would sacrifice anything
to make sure his family is provided for
and his children get the best education possible.

“Or how about your mother, whose soft hands once cuddled
and held you close when you were a baby?
Now, those hands are dry and rough,
bearing evidence of the challenges she faced just for us.
“This woman takes care of our daily needs,
constantly nagging and scolding us because of her love for us.
But sadly, we often misconstrue her love as control and unfairness.”

I have never thought of watching my parents while they slept.
I’ve watched my cousins sleep when they were babies,
all round and cuddly and sweet smelling.
But watch my parents? No way!
But after reading this message,
I realized that there was indeed much truth in it.
In fact, my parents do not have to be asleep for me to realize that they have aged..
Just looking at my mother walk tells me that her legs are not as strong as they were before.
Or hearing her ask me for help with that flowerpot in the garden,
the one she used to be able to push and drag around the garden without my help.
Or watching my dad lift a 10kg bag of rice.
I can easily carry that bag now. I am young. But to him, it is a struggle.

What do all these observations tell me?

Yes, my parents have aged. They are ageing, just as I am ageing.
But as I age towards my best years and become stronger,
they in turn are becoming weaker.
They were once the caregivers and I the receiver.
In time, I know our roles will reverse. Like it or not, want it to or not, this is life.
I suppose I have always subconsciously thought that my parents would always be with me,
never growing old. It took that message to make me realize that my parents are not immortal.
That they too, will one day leave the world and me.

Until then, I will make good use of our time together.