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Archive for October, 2008

My mother brought me up to be spoiled. She loved me and my sister so much, that she would let us have our way. I didn’t know that was wrong. The result? I grew up to be tensed and nervous whenever I don’t get my way. I have to have my way in everything. Everything has to be perfect. Perfectionist and pessimistic as they say. Through my constant reading of different motivational books and stories, I realized my mistakes and what I had to change in my life. I somehow learned how to be loose and easy going. But, just this week, during my day off, I had a personal inventory of my life again. I asked myself, am I completely happy? I realized that I should be, since God blessed me even if I’m not a perfect person and made some mistakes in my life. I have a very good and loving husband, a beautiful and smart baby, a very understanding mom, a loving sister, a decent job, and I do believe that God endowed me to become a person who has a desire to become the best, to achieve aspirations and to move a step closer.

However, as I further looked into my personality, I realized that I had been so uptight. Many times, simple things aggravate me and made me loose my joy. Simple distractions like slow computer, traffic, missed schedules, and tasks undone made me unhappy and distraught. I have reread my book Become a Better You by Joel Osteen, and according to the book to be truly happy we have to let go. We have to realize that not all our plans will come to pass. It’s not all the time that we can have our way. We have to learn to let go and just go with the flow. To be happy whether we get our way or not. To be content deep inside even if our surroundings is screaming. To have peace and to know that God is with you and will help you face whatever you have to face for the day. In the long run, if we think about it, the things that we allow to aggravate us today, will not even matter. You won’t even remember that you boyfriend was late, that you didn’t get a perfect score on your exam, that you didn’t pass the interview, that your car was damaged, that you got caught up on traffic. Just relax and enjoy life.

Yes, I’ve learned all these great lessons. I made a pledge to myself that I will not keep on looking on whats wrong anymore, rather I would look up at the bright side of things and keep hoping for the best. For me, its a great accomplishment, isn’t it?

I want to celebrate my little accomplishments for today and mostly I want to acknowledge myself for it. I want to say good job to myself because of these things:

1. I’m not watching tv anymore which means I am not wasting my previous time for a seemingly unprofitabe and unproductive activity
2. Doing my plan to drop on cards with my celebrity blog famous circle. I have reached more than 200 drops.
3. Being able to spend time with my little girl before she slept
4. Not yielding to the temptation of buying a softdrink for today. Whew, I saved 23 pesos for that. That’s pretty cool! Most of all, I learned the value of control and self-discipline. Though, I don’t know for how long. Hehe
5. Deciding to record my little daily successes and making sure I celebrate my simple successes so as not to be discouraged
6. Realizing that I need to focus more on what I have rather than on looking at what others have, which is a great human error most people are guilty at some point.

There used to be a plain black screen here, but I decided to post this beautiful picture of a man in a beach. This is how my desktop looks now, and I think it’s a good decision. My desktop at home, looks different. It has a picture of our baby, so its more personalized.

Work is being stressful, so this helps a lot. Every time I feel bored or tired, I just take a look at my desktop and imagine that I am in this beautiful place. This soothes me a lot, and helps me focus more on my job. Some times, I do some reading on my favorite blogs, specially if we are not on avail.

I really love the beach. It’s my favorite place, though its very hard to do go to beach here in the city, because its far. I love the calmness it gives me. Truly, nature has a great power and force that can be difficult to explain. Whatever it is, I simply love being in union with it. I wonder when would be my next relaxing trip to the beach, hopefully with the hubby.

“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.

Look at the sunny side of everything and make your
optimism come true.

Think only of the best,
work only for the best,
and expect only the best.

Forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

Give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.

Live in the faith that
the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true
to the best that is in you!”

I want to jump for joy. I have been waiting for it for so long…..and finally, just a few minutes from now, we have the internet installed at home. It didn’t took more than 10 minutes for the installation man to set it up. See? What took them so long? Well, they said, they have many new subscribers in line. But anyway, all for now, I am so happy. As expected, I immediately, made my very first post. Whew! I am excited, it’s so obvious, right? I’m happy too cause it’s gonna be my day off tomorrow and on Monday.

It takes forever for PLDT to finally install the internet. I have been waiting for it like in 10 years already, and they are just super slow. I’m wondering if I would have problems with their service, if they would be able to provide the kind of service we deserve. It sucks. I am so pissed off with them. I always go home every after shift, excited that its already installed but I’m always disappointed, and I’m just tired. I thought its only 3 days quick install. What? They should not advertise that kind of one liner, if they can’t make it, right? Too stupid. Now, wait and see, and they can really hear me complain. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr!
The phone is actually installed, but they haven’t installed the dsl or internet connection yet, and I have been waiting for it for so long. I am so impatient because of their bad service.

I really wanted to have internet at home already, cause I want to give more time for blogging. I found that this thing keeps me passionate and happier, and you know, it’s just keeps me excited each day. I love to blog, and that has been a sweet escape from the drudgery of work.

Lately, almost anyone who seems me comments that I’m too slim. They’ve been asking what diet pill I am taking. But ofcourse, I’m not taking any. They seem to be desperate for help so I referred them to this diet pill reviews website instead.

I wonder when our internet would be finally installed. I applied for it last Friday, and its almost a week now. They finally called us actually yesterday to ask if the computer is ready. Of course, we are just waiting for them. I’m hoping they will be able to install our internet and land line tomorrow. Yay, I am so excited. I really can’t wait. Whew! I am excited. I hope everything will turn out fine. Well I’m sure the installation is just easy for them. Definitely as easy as maneuvering remote control helicopters. LOL!

Nowadays, it is very important to take control of our schedules in order for us not to be stressed out and get overwhelmed to the point that we are missing on what’s really important in our lives. Life is indeed challenging, specially for moms.
I have been an official mom now, for a year. I can say, that it is really a very challenging role. Perhaps, the most challenging of all. Why? It’s because of the fact that I do work full time, 9 hours a day. Yes, 9 hours, because 1 hour of that is dedicated to our meal break and its included in the schedule. When I come back home, I have to attend to my baby’s needs so my mom can take some rest for a while. At night, when my husband comes home, I still need to attend to his needs. I have to talk to him about things and of course, just be with him. Then, I sleep late at night and wake up very early, 5:00 am to start working again. That’s how my routine goes.
Truly, its very easy to get side tracked by many things and personal matters when you have multiple roles. I realized now, how difficult it is to be a mother. It is not that easy. I simply salute those mothers out there, who are staying intact despite all of these challenges.
There are a lot of things I would love to do. Like, having more time to read self-development books, enjoying more free time, quiet time, pursuing my passions, studying more, playing etc. I know I have to make room for them too. I also need to reorganize my time in such a way that I have time for activities that pay me off higher in the long run, and not just be busy with not so important things. This means, having more time to work on our long term goals specially on the financial aspect.

I would like to thank all my regular and non regular ec droppers. Thanks for helping me get more traffic, and helping me show my writings and work to every one. I’m sorry if I some times fail to drop my cards on yours. Still busy right now, with work and other personal stuff in my life as a mother, as a wife, as a daughter and as someone who aspires for greater goals in life. Thank you so much for caring to read on my words and what’s going on with my life. I’ve also started setting up a new blog and I’m trying to maintain my other blogs as well. I’m happy that I’ve got the template that I like for all of them. Once we would have internet installed at home, I promise to give more of my time and of what I have.