Perhaps a month or more from now, we will be transferring home again. I am so fed up with the landlady. I just can’t take her VERY BAD attitude anymore. She is the most inconsiderate person I have ever known. I wrote previously and ranted about how mad I am for her text about refusing to allow us to install internet in the house. So, we thought of calling her because it will take time before she can come to our house, she lives far and she’s pretty busy. So, we called her yesterday. We explained that we really need internet connection, the reason we bought a computer. We told her we will just put an advance payment for the electricity for her to ease her doubt of us not being able to pay. She was furious and said there’s no way she will allow us. She wants us to have simple appliances that doesn’t cost much. She told us to find another house if we will insist. She also said she’s tired of a lot of requests from her tenants. I am really confused and her reaction is unbelievable. First and foremost, she never clarified it to us that we don’t have much freedom over appliances and electricity. I thought we have, thus, the purpose of our own electric meter. Because if I had known, I could have turned down this house. Sigh. That’s life, if you don’t have a home. I wish owners will be kinder to tenants using their homes/rooms because we pay you money. We are not just a water pump that will give you monthly money, we also would like to have a good relationship with you.
We are now planning to find a new place, even if we are still a month’s old from this house. Anyway, I don’t like this place. Every time its raining, water would come in our rooms. Its far from restaurants where we can buy food to eat without having to cook. Last week, we even found a snake at the backyard, just at the back of the house. And what’s more, this INCONSDIERATE person we are dealing with. GRRRR! God give me more patience.

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Having acne is no fun. I am glad I don’t have to worry about that. My face is a little bit oily, yes. But I wash my face in the morning and at night. That is enough, because over washing can lead to dry skin. My sister is the opposite. She used to have a flawless face. But, since college, the times when he had to stay up late for thesis and other projects, she started to develop acne and spots on her face. It was so fast, and no matter how many times she wash, she still had it. It lowered her self-esteem and she tried everything to make it go away. Right now, she is in America. I haven’t seen her yet, and hopefully she has a flawless face again. I guess her life there is less stressful than when she was still living with an OC grandmother. We cannot avoid that a tiny acne would pop in every now and then due to the stress of living right now. But, we should always take care of our face because this is what we have control over.

One of the things that my hubby keeps on telling me is to give tithes or offering to God. I really had trouble with this. Growing up in a non-christian family, giving back to God is not emphasized. Specially that I never really had a complete family. When we go to church, we would give in coins. One peso, two or five pesos if I have money. It wasn’t really from the heart. I’m sorry to say. It was just for me to show to others that I have money and I have something to put into the basket that passes by during the collection of money.
When I matured and learn the truth, I realized how important it is to give back to God what we have. My husband grew up in a poor family but they always emphasized giving. That’s a very important thing for him. That has actually been an issue in our being together. He would keep on telling me, but I would be more pratical and opt not to give. It’s really hard for me to give. It still is. It is a great challenge for me specially in these times to free that 100 pesos in my pocket. My hubby would save every coin left from his baon to work. He would put it in a piggy bank for God. He labeled it money for God, and do not touch. Meaning, off limits. I even tried to put 500 pesos on it, and later on, after I realized we were about to be short, I withdrew the money and added it to our budget. Yes, its true. Giving is such a challenge for me, because money is really limited. Still, God has remain faithful in so many ways. He would show his love to me, and to us, in a lot of different forms. Opportunities, favors and blessings. A lot of them came. But I failed to worship and to say thanks a lot of times thinkiing it was me, and it was my own effort that did it. But, I knew it deep within. It’s not mine, and its not because of me. Lord God, I am ashamed because of this. But I know, you know how to forgive. I’m sorry and thank you for helping me realize the truth. Thank you for giving a husband who is there to remind me of the truth about life and the real purpose of living. In case, just in case, I sleep again, please wake me up and help me know the truth……..

Commitment: From now, I will never be afraid to give to God. I will make it a goal, to make it a habit to give back to Him, what he is due.

Lord teach me how to give freely. Give me a generous heart, and help me stop worrying about making ends meet. I know Lord, that you provide, and I know you will be happy if I give more.

WARNING: POST TOO EMOTIONAL AND FULL OF HATRED. PLEASE DON’T READ IF YOU DON’T KNOW HOW TO EMPATHIZE. THE BLOGGER IS TOO UPSET TO BE MORE UPSET.

I feel so devastated today. I’ve been waiting for the requirements from the house owner, like the electric bill, contract and her ID for me to be able to subscribe to PLDT’s 990 plan for the internet. I waited for days, 3-4 days already. She’s been delaying it really. Then, yesterday I was shocked to receive a text from her saying she won’t allow me to install internet because WE MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO PAY THE ELECTRIC BILL! I almost fainted. I was enraged. Why not? I’ve been waiting for this, so long. This is the reason why we bought a computer, to get internet access at home. And now, she won’t allow us. We’ve been staying in the house for a month now. The owner said she won’t trust anyone anymore, because her previous tenants left without paying. They escaped. She doesn’t want to be tricked anymore. I don’t know what to think of her. I was just full of disbelief and anger. But, I have to let my mind work, not my heart or emotion. What does she think of us? We can’t pay her? She knows both of us have jobs. What does she want me to do? Pay an advance payment for a year for the electric for her to stop worrying or doubting if we can payment or not? All I can say, is she SUCKS. I just can’t believe this. Anyway, computers doesn’t really consume much electricity right? And anyway, we are paying the amount of electricity used up, not a fixed payment. So, no matter how much money our electirc bill will reach, that’s NOT HER PROBLEM, but ours. She said, what if you can’t pay, then others have their electricity cut off too because of you! I wanted to tell her, Why? do you think we will allow not to have current here in the house? Huh? we have a baby and ofcourse we want to have electricity all the time. This old woman really has a big problem with her mind. I thought she’s a lawyer. Fake or what? She doesn’t know how to think. Why would she pass on to us the problem she had with her previous renters. It’s really sooooo unfair. She ruined my day, and until morning I was upset. And I don’t think we will ever had a good relation ever again. We will not last long there, I wouldn’t. Once we found a new place, we will evaluate ASAP.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PANGIT……………………………

This is the disadvantage of not owning a house. And I promise, we will have one someday. No one will ever do this again to us. We will have our own house, and you know what? if ever I will have rooms for rent, I’ll make sure to treat my tenants well.
Yes, I am so upset and I am because this issue has something to do with my plans and goals. I plan to focus on blogging more, so I can earn money for my dream business. I am taking it step by step a day, and I just hate it when someone interrupts.

If you think your clicking on ppp too many times, and your quest for money is useless, think again. You better not give up. Just keep on clicking and you will soon see a white or green oop waiting specially for you. Just be patient, specially if you have a page rank. You don’t need to worry, some time it will be given to you. Just be patient and it will come. If you think its a waste of time, think again, a $10 is not that bad. You might get lucky, with a $20 or more. No page rank yet? I suggest you don’t waste too much time clicking and waiting in vain. Work on your backlinks so you’ll be given a rank. And once you have it, my advice, is for you to keep on clicking dear. *wink*

Today is our 2nd year anniversary. Yay, I am overwhelmed because I couldn’t believe we will last this long after all the hardships we encountered. I am not really in the mood to blog right now. I feel a little bit tired but I don’t want to miss this special day. We both woke up early and greeted each other. That was the last thing we did before going to sleep as well.

Hon, Thank you for your love. Thank you for everything. You know how much I love you and how much you mean to me. Your the only man in my heart, and I’ll be looking forward to spending my lifetime with you. I love you as you are, and I will always be……proud of you. Love you and I will do everything for our family. I am so happy with you hon.

When we bought our computer table, he was the one who installed it when we reach home. It was pretty complicated but I knew it that he can do it. So, it was built successfully. It looked so stable and strong. Yesterday he cleaned our backyard, full of grass and garbages. It took him a few hours. He did that the whole afternoon after church, while I on the other hand had a nap. He is such a handyman, and I am greatful for that. He knows about electrical circuits and setup as well, because that’s his course. I like looking at him while he does some work. It just makes me so proud of him. He is also amazed at the things that I can do, and he always respects and trusts me so much. We’re just both proud of each other. Some day, if we could have our own house, I know he will be able to take care of other stuff that needs to be taken cared of in the house. Things like fence installation, electrical wiring, bathroom fixes and other stuff around the house. It could save us a lot of money. Is your husband a handyman too? If he is, you must be so lucky just like me. * Wink * I am trying to compensate it as well by learning house chores like cooking, washing clothes and othes just for me to serve my family better.

Joy left me some comment just a few minutes and I just want to answer it here. Thanks joy for always visiting. Thank you for simply being there. Your one great friend.

“God Bless all you and may God grant all your wishes. I know you wish for the good of your family future and not only for yourself.”

Yes, I am really doing all of these for my family. I learned to somewhat forget myself in the process of finding a better future for my loved ones. They just mean so much to me. After all, I’m the one who made all of these mess. I made a mistake…..we made a mistake. I cannot turn things around to make it all right, and it’s already here. There’s no backing out. All I am doing right now, is to change our future as best as I could. All by myself….with him. Without the help of relatives or anyone. Yes, all by myself. We are not really that alone, we have who we needed the most, God. We experienced all the worst situations we could have. But we kept looking forward. And I know, some day I can look back to all of these and still be thankful, for he gave me a wonderful gift, my daughter and husband. That takes all the regrets away. That’s enough for me to be thankful. I live a life very different from what I have been used to. But still, I am free. Yes, I am free and no one is controlling my life and decisions. That’s the best part of it. But the bestest part are the hugs, kisses, and comfort. The love I feel for my family.

It takes courage to learn from mistakes. It takes courage to admit that we have made mistakes. Surely, no matter how we make it perfect or try to be, admit it or not, we all have flaws. And I just want to embrace life as it is. No pretensions, no fear, no regrets and worries. Just accept it as it is, and go with the flow. Love life and slowly but surely create the future you want to have.