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Archive for July, 2008

What’s your favorite beach in the world?
= boracay, everyone’s favorite here in the philippines.

What’s the next country you want to visit?
= I want to go to the United States. But, I’m not really that interested in going out. Specially nowadays that life is so hard.

What one thing are you craving today?
= ice cream? yeah, I love to have a taste. A break from my routine of soda, specifically coca-cola would be cool.

More redheads are born each…
More redheads are born each year in Scotland than in any other place in the world.

Now you know……:) Your one step smarter now. Join me here, for more facts and trivia.

I don’t know what’s happening to me. Last month was a great month, the first month I actually started to earn from blogging. Right now, I don’t really understand what’s happening to me. Since like I grew tired of blogging and I don’t have the same passion anymore. Grrrrr! I’m trying to find that enthusiasm and passion of discovering something new again in the blogging world. But, I failed. I’m not sure what’s going on. I just can’t find the same energy I used to have. As you can see, my traffic has been falling because I haven’t been updating my blog on a regular basis and I’m not doing blog hopping anymore. Suddenly, it all went away. Suddenly, the idea of earning online is not that appealing anymore. I hate it, I don’t wanna give up now that I have discovered a lot of great ideas from blogging. Surely not now. The idea of staying for a couple of hours just to blog after my shift is a task already, its not a hobby or a passion anymore. Perhaps, if I do have a computer at home it could be better so I can just check on my pc when I’m not doing anything. Hmmm, I’m really growing tired and I guess my body is finding something else. Something else, perhaps that is more worthwhile. Sigh.

One of my greatest weaknesses is being easily angered. My job somehow helped me tone down this attitude, since I cannot be rude to my customers. I’m actually good by nature, but honestly I am easily provoked and angered. I can’t control my emotions. Anger is one of the hardest emotions to control. A lot of relationships have been stained, and a lot of people committed their greatest regrets in life, because of anger. In the bible, we are taught to be slow in anger and to love our brothers more. I should say, I got the genes from my dad, since my mother is very patient. My dad is easily angered and I really believe I got my genes from him. As of now, I’m trying my best to free myself from it. It’s just that, sometimes people are hard to love and understand. I have this tendency to fight back every time someone provokes me. If someone hurts me with a word, I’ll get back to that person 2x, maybe not in the same way but surely deeper and more insulting. I’m a silent person and I really try my best not to hurt others. But once they stepped on me and undermine me, I do have a tendency to fight back. This has been my problem with my job. As you can see, my callers are irate and a lot of them are arrogant. Some times I just can’t help it, but fight back. I think this is really not good for me, because it’s giving me burdens and aches on my heart. I don’t wanna die of heart attack. I know God is greater than my weaknesses and I know in time, yes in time, I can conquer this.

I got this Sweet Home Blogger Award from my dear online friends Shengy and Crissy. Thank you so much guys. I really do appreciate it. Right now, I’m going through some time wherein I’m spending less and less with blogging. Honestly, it looks like I need more motivation to blog. I just think that some times when I blog too much, I get too stressed and I ask myself if its really worth it. But don’t worry, I know I can overcome this. I know that I just have to press on and continue. It’s just difficult to be an active blogger and a full time worker at the same time. As the saying goes, you cannot serve two masters at the same time. You have to make a choice, and right now, my work is my priority. No need to explain why. That explains why my traffic is radically dropping. I feel like i just don’t have the energy to continue. But don’t worry, I would still be here. Perhaps, I just need more motivation. I don’t want to give it up, cause I gain great happiness from blogging. But you know, it’s just not like it used to be. Argggghhhhh!

I’ll be passing this tag some time to my friends who deserve it.

Have you watched the movie troy? I liked the movie in the sense that it was so real, and it really made you feel like you were in the old age days. I really love movies like that. Perhaps, a lot of money are spent just to make the movies appear real. For sure, a lot have been spent for the suit of armor worn by the actors and actresses. Anyway, that’s just a piece of cake from them. Sigh. How I wish those money will be used for better things, like helping the poor. Sometimes I feel like life is really unfair. Those who have money are not really spending it wisely and those who have good aims and have good plans some times don’t get it. If only I could create money. Sigh again. I sometimes imagine how life would be if its too easy, and we don’t have to work and be a slave to bosses and time. But after few minutes of thinking about it, reality still sinks in. Life is like this, and it is meant to be enjoyed, not hated. Aside from that, come to think of it, if every one says life is unfair, then life must be fair then. Get that?

How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life you will have been all of these.

George Washington

Q: What do you do when you are feeling very sad or depressed?
A: I just keep quiet and try to hide my feelings. Usually I burst out into tears if I couldn’t hold it anymore. I have a tendency to not talk to anyone.

Q: Who was your first crush?
A: my 3rd degree cousin. hehe, at grade 5

Q: If given a chance to skip work for a day (without repercussions), how would you spend the entire day?
A: Stay at home with baby and do some chores so my mom won’t have to do it, do some blogging and shop.

I would like to say hi to all manic monday participants. I’m sure you enjoyed this week’s questions. Keep joining.

First of all, let me thank all those people who joined my drop list. I’ll try to visit you as much as possible. By the way, you might be seeing less rants and personal things here in this site. I just have a new website, My Online Diary.

These are the things that I did last week.

A Restful Day
Date: July 10, 08
Day: Thursday

It’s supposed to be my day off but I swapped schedule with Sally so I can be there at my baby’s dedication this Sunday. I rested from blogging and any goal activity. This is a rest day for me, though I’m working. This is a reward for accomplishing my long to do list, I feel happy and I feel that I ought to celebrate in a way.

I went shopping
Date: July 11, 08
Day: Friday

This is supposed to be posted yesterday, but I don’t have a laptop/computer at home, so its late but I still want to document it. This is my day off, so I stayed at home. In the morning, I busied myself with washing clothes, a bunch of them. I slept after that, it really made me tired. I went shopping in the afternoon and bought shoes for baby, and clothes for me to wear on her dedication.

Excited for Baby’s Dedication

Date: July 12, 08
Day: Saturday

I’m excited for tomorrow, it is baby’s dedication already and we are hoping everything will be fine. I just logged out from my work, and now I’m planning to spend some time blogging, I haven’t been giving so much time for my blogs recently because I observed that it’s giving me unnecessary stress. Well, I love to blog, but working and blogging too much at the same time, is not a good lifestyle. It can make you stressful at that level. So I will just spend probably a couple of hours and head back home to be with my family. I just changed my template for this blog and I graciously love it. I just want to be reminded that I am choosing to be happy that’s why the template is like for kids.

Baby’s Dedication

Date: July 13, 08
Day: Sunday

Yes, finally, its over. It wasn’t perfect, can you imagine? the chicken that we ordered for the gathering had a very bad smell and taste and the people told us about it. They told us next time to ask for their help in cooking instead of letting someone cook it for us. Well, we ordered it from our neighbor who sells food. It was really bad, most of them never ate it. I cried because of that, but in the end, everything else went well. What’s important is baby is now dedicated.

Date: July 14, 08
Date: Monday

I woke up late, instead of my plan to wake at 4 am, I wake up at 5 am. I hurried up to work. I decided to spent 2 hours after work to work on my blogs which I haven’t been working on lately. Just got so stressed at work and realized I need to moderate my blogging which is nice and makes me passionate but is not healthy and adds to my stress. I wrote an article “How I Want To Be Remembered”.
The article by leo of zenhabits about the death of her aunt, makes me realize that life indeed is short. Most of the time, we don’t realize that, and we have a tendency to think that we are here forever, which is so NOT TRUE.